For financial reasons, I finally dropped City of Heroes. Not upset about it, really- the game is lacking in end-game content (and early game content for that matter...there were tons of times i wanted to create a character but didn't have any interest in either grinding to lvl 5 or doing the exact same beginning missions over again). Their Winter event has changed little in recent years, and instead of actually tweaking concepts that haven't turned out well (like the Mission Architect), they frantically try to create incentives for people to play the system as it is.


We need a basic internet plan anyway for Joey's job searches, selling stuff on ebay, shit like that- the good thing is that I can keep playing Guild Wars, since there's no monthly fee.

Incidentally, the clucky types can be some of the most judgmental people on the planet when it comes to other people's pregnancies. I didn't experience anything personally, but I see the way they treat other people who've gotten pregnant. What a bunch of bitches. I had to leave the community; I just can't take the whining that goes on in there about how they're sooooo responsible for waiting, while everyone around them is getting pregnant while on drugs/welfare/in an abusive relationship/whatever. What do they want, a pat on the back? It sucks that it isn't happening as easily for them as it is for others, but there's nothing unfair about it.

People change over the years; it's just the way things are. Everybody does it.

It still makes me sad to see someone I used to care about go completely off the deep end. I sometimes think about when I used to hang out with them years ago- it was awesome. The sad thing is when I think about how the same person who used to come out with me to all-night diners/coffeeshops in the middle of the night for no reason is now the same person who is prone to daily angry outbursts, threats of violence, etc.

It may be a reality that some people end up like that, but it's still a sad one.

Ugh...the past couple of days have been draining as hell.

I feel like an arsehole. I lied about something really, really bad and am starting to pay the price for it.

Dear cf people (well, one in particular who I know personally):

If you don't want kids for yourself, that's all fine and dandy. Don't shit all over people who do, accusing all parents who have to receive public assistance of using such money on "other things," of violating your sacred right to sit at the front of the bus because they're (they=parents with babies/small kids) obviously deliberately sitting at the front of the bus just to piss you off, etc.

What the FUCK are parents and pregnant women supposed to do if they don't have access to a vehicle- never go out? Oh- you say that they could find someone (say, a trusted friend or relative) to watch the kids while you go out grocery shopping or whatever. Yeah- that's not always an option for everyone.

What about people with no relatives around? If I had kids, I would be SOL. The only relative around who would be willing to do so is my father-in-law, and I do NOT trust him with any children alone. Not that I think he would do anything inappropriate to them, but he smokes a lot of pot and thinks nothing of driving under the influence of said pot.

Parents can't always rely on friends/neighbors to be there to watch the kids. Not only that, so what if we could? What if I had kids and a nice relative who was always home and who was willing to look after the kids for short periods of time on short notice so I could run errands? Not only do I feel that it would be rude to take advantage of someone like that (using her services sometimes would be fine, but not every single time), parents shouldn't have to resort to that to make some cf bastards happy. Boohoo, you can't afford a car so you have to rely on public transit to get around. A lot of people are in that boat in this economy, parents and non-parents. Boohoo, you've been out of work for a long time and have to rely on public assistance, so it pisses you off that there are people who abuse the system you have to depend on. Yeah, I'm sure it pisses off most people in that situation- even the parents. Parents are an easy target, and the fact that you actually feel that parents and their small children should stay home rather than take up "your" space is mind-bogglingly infuriating.

I'm saying this as someone who has actually been told by someone on public assistance (to my face!) that they were hoping to have a second child so they could get more welfare money. I know it happens, and it really sucks for everyone- the people who legitimately need that safety net AND the people who are paying into it. I don't give a flying fuck what your personal financial woes are- they are no excuse for your anti-welfare parent bitchery.

I cannot believe we were ever friends (yes, I personally know the person who has said these things). Granted, this argument is not new, but it hurts that they know how badly I want children and how little money we currently have, and yet they still persist in saying such things when they know I can read them.

What a surprise- the moron my father-in-law hired to renovate the kitchen isn't going to be done anywhere near on time.

Said father-in-law hasn't stopped licking this guy's nuts either- any moron can tell that he's just trying to get the contractor to shave off a few hundred from the bill. Thankfully, it hasn't worked so far, but we'll see what happens at the end.

I promised I wouldn't whine too much in my lj about how much life sucks right now, but I really just want to fucking die. We make half the poverty line, can't afford to move, father-in-law doesn't get it and gets angry when my husband isn't awake at 11 or 12 during the day when he visits the house (my husband works OVERNIGHTS for fuck's sake you asshole!!!! You know this!), and whines to us that he wishes he could afford a Lexus like the one his next-door-neighbor has.

I would say that I'd be glad of the possible move to Vegas, but I'm not anymore. While it would be cheaper to live there than here, Joey's father would move there in a SECOND if we did. Granted, we would be living in our own place (FIL doesn't live with us now, but he owns the place we live in). However, we would have to deal with the constant knocking on our door, unannounced. Not only that, but if Joey's sister ever phoned our place and we didn't answer, she would phone FIL and he would phone us demanding to know why we didn't answer. He's already done this, but it would happen more out there.

I've already brought up the possibility of me leaving for Canada without Joey. It may be the only option- the stress is too much right now, and without my mouth to feed, Joey can get out of that place a lot faster.

I must say, seeing scathing reviews of Champions Online pleases me. That game is the embodiment of everything that should not be done when launching/promoting an MMORPG.

I finally decided to get back into knitting- it calms me down and gives em something productive to do when I'm at home. Ordered a massive bolt of cheap yarn and some needles from AC Moore so I can practice. I would have just GONE there with Joey one day, but since we would be taking the bus, it's actually cheaper to order online. New Jersey transit being the mess that it is, it costs 2 bucks per person to go to the mini-mall where AC Moore is (here, they charge depending on how far you're going...even though it's cheaper to go to Lakewood, which is further...). 2 bucks per person, 2 ways=8 dollars.

8 dollars compared to a 5 dollar shipping charge if I order online. Not only that, but it saves us the inconvenience of going out there, buying two things, and then waiting FOREVER for a bus back.

At least this way I can have a hobby I enjoy that won't get Joey's dad griping about possible messes in the house.

Ugh...the women on the clucky comm can get nasty, especially when someone they don't "approve" of gets pregnant before they do. Not only that, they are a group of people with extremely delicate constitutions- you're not allowed to say anything even remotely negative to them or they get butthurt.

I don't like what a lot of women on that comm say- *whinewhinewhine I DESERVE to be pregnant first!!!!!!!!!!* No, no you do not. It either happens or it doesn't. Just because you've been trying longer/have more money/have a nice car does NOT make you more entitled to having a baby than ANYONE else, no matter what their socioeconomic status may be.

Only people who play City of Heroes/Villains will understand what I mean.


Earlier today, I was playing my (relatively) new blaster who was then lvl 24. I don't really like pvp, in fact I quite hate it. The experience you get for doing pvp-zone missions is pretty decent though, and the missions themselves are quick.

There was only one other person in the entire zone- a mastermind with quite a hefty bounty on him. I wasn't interested in actually fighting him, so I did two missions, hunted for bosses, and hit the hotspots for a bit. Since I notice that this other guy isn't:

A: hiding near the hero base waiting to ambush heroes as they come into the zone (this is a favorite move of many people on both sides),
B: looking for badges/history plaques, or
C: at the hotspot,

I decided to see if I could find him. He was parked by the villain base- not only was he:

A: on top of a hill that was only protected by a few pop-up turrets (any one person should be able to withstand the damage from a few pop-ups while killing something),
B: AFK, and
C: not protected by his pets (judging by his name and costume, probably zombies),

I decided to snipe him. The idiot should have at LEAST either gone near the helicopter where he would have been better protected, or called out his zombies before going AFK so that he could have them in Defensive mode (whereby they would attack anything that attacked him).

Needless to say, since he wasn't even at his comp, I killed him easily. I go to do another mission and get a rather nasty message from him about how he was only stepping out to get a bite to eat, and how dare I kill his poor defenseless character when he was obviously unable to defend himself. No point in arguing with such an idiot, I just ignored him. Seriously...you enter a PVP zone and don't bother to defend yourself, you deserve to get beaten down. Besides, he didn't get any xp debt from me killing him- the only thing he lost was his bounty.